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dad cries when he thinks we aren't looking
after you've taken your pills and gone to sleep
when i've holed away in my bedroom again
and he says "why her?" so many times that i feel it is all he knows how to say these days
you aren't the you we knew and now we have to make sure you have all your medicine
all your drugs, all your drugs, all your drugs
"take these, they'll help" but you still can't remember what happened yesterday or form coherent thoughts and you still spill your guts in the mornings before my brother goes to school
your fifty-sixth birthday and we can't leave you home alone for fear it will be the end of you
i have to make sure you wake up on time and dad has to remind you that he still loves you even though you aren't the you we knew--
everything is injections and scans and charts and pillspillspills and drugs and chemicals and they're killing you to keep you here
i don't feel like painting and going out with friends makes me feel guilty for leaving you so i staystaystay on the couch and i swear i've watched secret window a thousand times this week
you can only eat rice pudding and seafood and you're sicksicksick and we all can only watch
illogical, irrational, unreasonable but it's happened to that friend of yours and dad's and he would have died if his neighbor hadn't been home
our neighbor is never there, not during the day or even most nights
i'm helpless and dad's helpless and nothing is right anymore,
it hasn't been right for months and your life won't ever be the way it was meant to be again and i think that makes me the saddest
you're too tired to even water the garden
i dread the day the pills stop working
after you've taken your pills and gone to sleep
when i've holed away in my bedroom again
and he says "why her?" so many times that i feel it is all he knows how to say these days
you aren't the you we knew and now we have to make sure you have all your medicine
all your drugs, all your drugs, all your drugs
"take these, they'll help" but you still can't remember what happened yesterday or form coherent thoughts and you still spill your guts in the mornings before my brother goes to school
your fifty-sixth birthday and we can't leave you home alone for fear it will be the end of you
i have to make sure you wake up on time and dad has to remind you that he still loves you even though you aren't the you we knew--
everything is injections and scans and charts and pillspillspills and drugs and chemicals and they're killing you to keep you here
i don't feel like painting and going out with friends makes me feel guilty for leaving you so i staystaystay on the couch and i swear i've watched secret window a thousand times this week
you can only eat rice pudding and seafood and you're sicksicksick and we all can only watch
illogical, irrational, unreasonable but it's happened to that friend of yours and dad's and he would have died if his neighbor hadn't been home
our neighbor is never there, not during the day or even most nights
i'm helpless and dad's helpless and nothing is right anymore,
it hasn't been right for months and your life won't ever be the way it was meant to be again and i think that makes me the saddest
you're too tired to even water the garden
i dread the day the pills stop working
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Why do I care when she doesn't talk to me?
Why do I care when she doesn't talk to me? It's not like it matters, it's not like it's hurting me...
Well, no, maybe that isn't true. It is hurting me. Why does it hurt me? It shouldn't matter that she isn't talking to me. It's not a big deal. It's not like she's ignoring me...
What if she's ignoring me? Is she ignoring me? She tells me she's busy. I believe her I really do, but there's always this part of me that tells me I'm just annoying. Why would someone want to talk to me? I'm not good enough...
I'm never good enough. I push myself, put so much pressure on myself. People tell me I'm good at things, but I can't see it. I can't belie
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Good Night
it started with “good night”
and the way you stopped saying it
and I told myself it was because
you were too tired
too weary
too worn
and I made it okay
then I stopped being your “good morning”
and everyone else saw you first
and I told myself it was because
you were too busy
too popular
too distracted
and I made it okay
now it ends with “good bye”
and it's not a cry for attention or a ploy for your love
you can tell yourself it's because
I'm too needy
too jealous
too much
but I gotta make it, okay?
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Silence Kills
I don't want to know me,
I don't want to make a sound.
Let's pretend I've stopped existing
and start breaking ground.
You can dig this hole for me,
even though I'm nowhere to be found.
You are the only one who can finish this,
though I'll never admit you were the only one keeping me around.
I don't want to hurt you anymore,
so go ahead and put me to rest.
Let's bury my body
and put denial to the test.
Who is this girl you knew?
Where is she?
She drowned on her own words
and now you're free.
Look me in the eye
as you lower me down.
I'll never stop being the one
who let you drown.
Forget me
for I'll not make a sound.
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This breaks my heart. It sounds like such a difficult thing to live with, I can't even imagine it. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.